There's so much going through my mind lately that I honestly don't know how to sort it out. It's not all bad stuff. It's just stuff I guess you could say. I'm starting to get to a place within myself that I'm happy. It's happening extremely slowly but what else is new? I definitely wouldn't say I'm content with everything in my life. I hate the fact that my relationship with my father is practically non-existent. I called him last weekend to say hi and see what was going on. He was acting, to me, like he didn't want to be on the phone with me. I know he and I haven't been talking as much as we used to. It just seems like when he was in another state, it was so much easier. I didn't have to actually face him or have all these repressed memories that I have no idea if they are true or not coming back. I think, for now, I have just shoved them away. I'm not really sure how to handle them and I'm honestly afraid trying to deal with them will destroy everything I have worked to achieve. That's the last thing in the world I need right now...